Acceptance

ac-cep-tance =  the condition of being accepted or acceptible
    As children, we struggle with fitting in.  Always wanting our peers to accept us or trying to change so they will.  As adults, we search for someone to accept us as we are and to love us unconditionally.  In my life, this is the one thing that I did right.  I found my soul mate early on and knew from our first date, that I was going to marry him.  It's amazing how things that happen to you in your childhood still play out all through your life.  Raising children is such a challenge.  We want to protect them, but once they go to school, that protective bubble you put them in, is broken.  All you can do is make sure they feel the acceptance at home and love them unconditionally. The truth is, I still struggle with acceptance, not from Rich, but just from life in general.  I always felt like a square peg trying to fit in a round hole.  I'm just wondering, at what age do you stop caring what other people think?  This blog is a big step for me.  I have always loved to write and expressing myself.  Those of you who are going on this journey with me, I thank you.  I'm hoping by blogging my feelings about all my crazy thoughts, I will build some acceptance and start to like who I am.  I think alot of people out there struggle with acceptance.  That is why drugs and alcohol are so prominent in our society.  Fortunately, I get drunk and throw up after the third drink.  The reason I am talking about acceptance today is because I feel it touches our lives everyday, even if we don't realize it.  For me, this is therapy and I am, and probably always will be....a work in progress.


I wrote this a couple days ago and I struggled with whether I should post it...kinda funny...I worried about what people would think.  Somebody from my High School, recently touched my life in a very positive way.  She probably doesn't even know she did.  She was older than me and was a cheerleader..  I thought she was just beautiful and so cool.  I never thought she even knew who I was, but she contacted me and made me realize that I'm ok...and maybe I'm not so square afterall.  If she reads this, I hope she knows that even small things sometimes make the biggest difference in someones life.  ac-cep-tance:  the condition of being accepted.....