It is, what it is....

I went shopping today.  I'm still searching for that outfit that will make me look like I used to...its a real challenge now to find things that are appropriate for my age.  I used to have a style about myself...I always wore the same kind of things...but now those things don't look good on me anymore and I have had to find a new style...I refuse to wear those old lady things, but on the other hand, I don't want to look like an old Cougar on the prowl.  I would like to know why they put that harsh overhead lighting in the dressing rooms...for crying out loud, trying on clothes is hard enough, but when your wrinkles and grey hair roots are spotlighted, you just want to cry.  I also think those mirrors have a funny curve about them...I swear I don't look that fat in my own mirror at home.  If someone was smart, they would put soft lighting and elongated mirrors in the dressing room.  I guarantee, they would sell more clothes.  I went bathing suit shopping recently for our trip.  That was not fun, but I actually found one that I don't hate.  I plan on being in a bathing suit quite a bit, which scares the crap out of me.  I won't know anyone there and the theory is, if you tan your skin, it will look better, so I am gonna try to get a little bit of a tan. 
  I have been struggling with my hair the last couple years.  Now on top of the greying, it is getting thinner.  It has lost its shine too.  Unfortunately the oil is still there, but that is not the same as shine.  I miss my shiny dark brown hair.  I decided recently to do something to my hair, that I am regretting now.  My hair was so thin and flat and just didn't have any style, so I decided to get a perm.  Well, either its my hair or my hairdresser, but it is not quite what I had hoped for.  Where I am really grey, it went a little fuzzy on me.  I just can't win with my hair...so the next thing is just shaving my head, buying a wig and just letting it grow out naturally...I'm just kidding, I would never be that brave, but it is tempting.  I think I may try short hair for awhile, but I will wait til I get back from Hawaii.  With a little work, I can make it look ok.  Men have it so easy...Rich really does shave his head and he looks good.
  I have come to the conclusion that the older I get, the harder it gets to achieve sexy....lol, if that is even possible.  Its hard to be sexy when your night cap is mira-lax and you go through the tweezer/magnifying glass ritual every night.  But it is what it is...and you do the best with what ya got.  I'm reading 50 Shades of Grey while I am in Hawaii and Rich is reading Hunger Games.  That can go one of two ways...we are both so into the book that we can't put it down, or we get into it and Rich chases me through the rain forest and when he catches me I whip him like a bad boy.  I am sure a blog about that will follow....stay tuned.