What I know for sure: My life would not be worth living if I had not married a young boy named Richard Montague on Jul 1st, 1972. We both were lost, but in each other, we found our other half and became one.
I also realize that I have been a control freak...and that I have to let go. Its a Mom thing and also something that is fueled by my anxiety. I am a fixer, but it is exhausting and I am trying to let go of that.
I also have know for sure that my high heeled days are over. We went out the other night to The Murder Mystery Cafe with friends. I wanted to dress up, since I am in blue jeans and flip flops most of the time. I wore my new black high heels. There is nothing sexier than a woman that is owning her heels and walking with confidence and sex appeal. Well, that was NOT me that night. Rich parked the car as far away as he possibly could, so walking sexy was not on my mind. Just trying to keep the darn things on my feet and trying to forget that the balls of my feet were cussing me out. The next day my knees kinda hurt and I realized for sure....my high heeled days are over. It makes me said to realize this...but I just have to learn to walk sexy in flats.
I have also realized that friends are a very important part of my life...finding people that get you is hard...and strange as it seems...not everyone gets you. To find someone that truly laughs at the same things you do and can make you laugh when you feel like crying, is so rare....thank you Kat for coming into my life. Old friends are to be cherished....this I know for sure.
Knowing things is half the battle...implementing what you know, is the other half. I wish I knew then what I know now. I would not have laid in the sun as much. When you get older your skin changes and old skin DOES NOT LOOK BETTER BROWN. Maybe just a little bit of color, but the last thing you want to do is burn your skin. I think if you did, it just might all melt away.
2012 is a big year for me. I remember when I was little, thinking that 2000 would be so strange and here we are....12 years into it. Turning 60 will NOT be easy for me....and I would have to say, of all birthdays, that one is the hardest. Saying that you are married 40 years is quite the milestone too. I remember when just being 40 seemed so old....now it all just seems so surreal. I am getting to that age now, that people I know are dying...some older, but yes, some younger. What I know for sure? Growing old is a privledge that you are not guaranteed, so live each day as full as you can. I know I don't have to worry about laughing...I just tune into Facebook and see what Kat has posted and I have my children and grandchildren to make me smile and be proud everyday. Then at night, I lay beside my love and I know...my life is good and for right now...I am happy...this I know for sure.
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