It's not always easy....

I haven't blogged in awhile, but things have been really busy...life has a way of setting the pace.  You just have to hang on sometimes and pray for quieter times.  I read a blog that someone wrote about how it annoyed them when little old ladies would come up to her and say, "Enjoy these times, they go so fast".  Maybe they go fast because they aren't always that enjoyable.  I am one of those little old ladies and I can tell you right now, time does go fast, especially after 50.  I remember all to well my days as a young Mom and it wasn't all fun and Hallmark moments.  There was times when you just didn't think you could do it all.  I marvel at all the young Moms that work and go to school and have children.  I have two very spectacular daughters that do just that.  My daughter Regan's little boy Nickolas, has been very challenging.  Sleepless nights are the norm.  I am babysitting my grandchildren, so I know the challenges young children can be.  As much as I enjoy it, cleaning poop around testicles won't be missed and wiping snotty noses and constant drool won't be missed either.  What I will miss are those sweet little smiles and when they say, "I love you Mimi".  I love all the first things in their lives and the joy on my children's faces as they watch their children achieve.  I have learned through the years that you can't do it all and you can't judge yourself by what other people do.  It only makes you doubt yourself...and I swear, kids can sense fear and you have to be strong.  The most important thing is, when you come across those moments of utter joy, stop and breathe it in.  Record it in your mind and try to keep that memory in.  One day, you may find yourself forgetting all the sleepless nights, poopy diapers and runny noses and tell some young mom, " Enjoy these times, they go so fast."  Time is what it is...it is made up of moments...some very wonderful ones and some that you just try to get through hoping for easier times.  Don't get me wrong..I consider being a Mom and Mimi my greatest accomplishments, but I also know that all the moments have been like a quilt...each patch a different stage of life.  Some patches are prettier than otheres, but when they are all quilted together, they keep you warm and give you great comfort.