Living with half a heart...

So much has happened to me since last I blogged....I think if I talked about everything, I'd have a novel.  I never thought I would ever have to be without my kids....just always thought they would be here and that I would be there for them too.   But things change...that roller coaster of life is picking up steam.   My daughter Regan and her family moved to California in June.  When they left to get on that plane, I felt like my heart was breaking.   I have to be honest...I did not take this very well....I was happy for their opportunity, but so sad for what we would all lose.   The commraderie of family.   I felt myself slipping into a depression when I first found out....I just could not stop crying....but time helps everything get better.   I flew out to see them last month.  I had never flown by myself before, so this was pretty scary for me, but I did it.   It helped that Rich put me on a non stop flight....not sure if going out there helped my anxiety but it was good to see their new home and their surroundings.   It is definitely NOT Indiana.  I believe this with all my heart....no PLACE can make you happy....and home is where your heart is.   If your family is there with you, then you will bloom where ever you are planted.   Regan is like her Dad....she will make it.

   My blog has usually been about the pitfalls of growing older...I like to look at life with a sense of humor, because if I don't, I might cry, but mainly because my bunions are killing me.   Sagging skin, age spots and learning to shop differently.   Now I don't look for the most stylish thing, I look for things that cover but still look stylish...I am going to a wedding in October and needed a dress.   Do you have any idea how hard it is to find a dress with sleeves, that hides a belly and is not too short, but still looks stylish and maybe is a little bit sexy?   Well I found one....and it was on the clearance rack.....probably because not too many older ladies are looking for a dress right now.   Boo yah....I felt like hit the jack pot....it's the little victories that keep you  going....I even found a pair of heels that fit.  Let's just say I will wear them to the wedding, but will have other shoes to put on.